The trouble is with me…. I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Rom. 7:14-15
Last post I wrote about dependence. I shared instruction God provided as I faced challenges in my week.
But why am I so slow to get it?
Unfortunately, my week did not end well. I did not get out of the way.I reacted.
I took over.
I got emotional.
It was all about me, me, me!
As I struggled, why didn’t I pause to pray?Why do I fail to do what I know to do?
As Paul exclaims in Romans 7, I don’t really understand myself… I want to do what is right but I don’t do it.
This is my prayer today: That God would somehow interrupt my self-reliance; that He would raise my awareness as soon as I take the very first step away from His will. I need the Holy Spirit to shout at me because I’m obviously missing His whispers.
Why am I so slow to turn to God?
He alone is always the answer I need…the peace for my anxiety, the wisdom for my confusion, the self-control for my frenzy, the power to move the mountains I face.
With all He provides, why don’t I race to Him first thing?
Can you relate?
Do you know the truth but fail to live it?
Join me in repentance.
Join me in recommitment.
Join me in persevering.
Let’s change these habits and surrender to God’s control.
Father God, forgive my waywardness this week. Forgive my arrogance that I would rely on myself instead of run to you. I know only you can bring success to these challenges. Arrest my self-reliance. Sensitize me to your voice. Help me move out of the way that you can flow through me instead. Change me. Break these habits. Help me live a life of trust and dependence.